One Small Seed: A Spring Invitation

This has been a long winter. It came in early and it’s going out bumpy, whiplashing between 65 degrees and sunny and 20 degrees and snowing, sometimes within the span of a few days. Spring is technically arriving. It just hasn't fully committed yet.

My dogs, however, have made their position very clear.

Tsuki has been standing at our wintered-over door, bullying my partner to tear down the plastic sheeting. She is ready for us to open the good-weather entrance — as if she can personally accelerate the season through sheer force of will. Meanwhile, Kira is outside sniffing every scent trail, rolling around in the newly uncovered patches of muddy grass like it's the greatest thing in the world.

And me? Still in my heavy coat. Still half-bracing for another snowstorm. Still not quite trusting that things can change.

That's Maine for you. And our unpredictable weather is a perfect metaphor for what it feels like to live in a body that's been through a lot. You learn not to get too excited too soon, because you never know what tomorrow will bring.

Even with my hesitation, I can feel it. The shift. The days stretching a little longer. That first moment of standing in the sun and not immediately wanting to go back inside. Telling my partner that if feels “warm outside” just to find out that we’re barely above freezing.

Something is loosening. I’ve been noticing that shift not just around me, but in me too.

If you're managing a chronic illness, or you're somewhere in the long, nonlinear journey of cancer treatment and recovery, you know what it's like to have a complicated relationship with your own body. To want more energy and not always have it. To make a plan and have your body veto it. To watch other people talk about "spring resets" and "new season, new you" energy and feel somewhere between exhausted and mildly annoyed.

I see you. This is just the reality of living in a body that doesn't follow a predictable script.

But that reality doesn't disqualify you from embracing the energy of this season. It just means you approach it in a different way — in a way that honors your unique needs.

Throughout the years of navigating illness in my own body and working with women like you, I have learned that big, all-or-nothing resets don't stick. They burn bright, they feel exciting, and then they quickly collapse under the weight of a bad symptom day, a treatment cycle, a flare, or just plain old life.

What does work is almost frustratingly small.

Standing in the sun for five minutes and actually letting yourself enjoy it. Taking the long way on a walk when you have the energy and the short way when you don't, without activating the voice of self-judgment. Adding one seasonal veggie to your plate that sounds good to you. Noticing the story you're telling yourself about what's possible, and getting just a little curious about whether it's still true.

These aren't consolation prizes for people who can't do the big stuff. These are the actual building blocks of a life that feels good to live in.

Lately, I've been thinking of my life as a garden. Not some perfectly manicured English estate with topiaries and perfectly clean lines, but more like a wild, rambling, slightly-overgrown-in-spots space that somehow keeps producing beautiful things anyway.

Some areas are genuinely thriving. Some have been a little neglected (looking at you, social life). Some patches feel heavy with things I've been meaning to clear out but keep stepping around.

And with the growing energy of spring, I need to remember to pace myself. I don't need to take a rototiller to everything for a complete overhaul. I just need to tend to this landscape — gently, intentionally, one small patch at a time.

So I've been sitting with two questions lately, and I want to offer them to you too:

Where could I use a little more support right now? Maybe it's more rest. More connection. More movement — or permission to let go of movement that no longer works (so long HIIT). More joy (which is wildly underrated as a health tool, by the way). More laughter, more ease, more of whatever makes you feel like you.

And what am I ready to let go of? Not in a dramatic, I’m quitting my life and moving to Portugal way. Just an look at what's feeling heavier or harder than it needs to? What are you carrying out of habit, not because it's actually helping you? What no longer fits the life you're living right now or what no longer fits the life you want to create?

So, here's your call to action. You don't need perfection. You don't need a transformation.

You just need one seed.

One small thing to plant. One small thing to release. One tiny shift in how you move through your days that says: I'm paying attention to myself. I'm worth tending to.

The light is already changing. The days are already longer than they were a month ago. And somewhere in you, something is shifting too — even if it's subtle, even if it's slow, even if your body is making it complicated.

Let this season meet you exactly where you are.

Plant the one seed that feels right. Then watch, with a little curiosity and a lot of grace, what grows. 🌱

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